summertime sadness

I am not really happy that school is ending, which sounds crazy (especially as this year hasn't been the best), but I really am reluctant to go into year ten because GCSE's scare me and I had enough stress preparing for my Latin level 1 GCSE, without having multiple to do, and even more to prepare for. I feel like the year has gone too quickly and I am not ready - whatever that means.

I did have a lot of hopes for this summer, it was going to be great and amazing but I don't know if it will. I feel a bit like it will just be me alone in my house being lazy and not productive and failing at whatever teenagers are meant to do to fill their summers.

I plan on reading more because social media has really stopped me reading as much as I used to, ten-year-old Amy was a crazy book lover, who stayed up till 1am reading three books back-to-back.

I plan on doing a lot of things.

I don't really know what I am doing or where I am going with this post, so here are some songs you should check out.

Cold War Kids – Audience Of One
Tegan And Sara – Call It Off
Never Shout Never – cheatercheaterbestfriendeater
Fearless Vampire Killers – Could We Burn, Darling?
All Time Low – Dear Maria, Count Me In
Kill the Alarm – Fire Away
Bright Eyes – First Day Of My Life
The All-American Rejects – Gives You Hell
The All-American Rejects – Gives You Hell
Foster The People – Houdini
Sum 41 – In Too Deep
Ben Howard – Keep Your Head Up
Of Monsters And Men – King And Lionheart
Daughter – Landfill
Of Monsters And Men – Little Talks
Mumford & Sons – Lover Of The Light
Lady Antebellum – Need You Now
Foster The People – Pumped Up Kicks
Agnes Obel – Riverside
Scouting For Girls – She's So Lovely
Fountains Of Wayne – Stacy's Mom
Fall Out Boy – Sugar, We're Goin Down
The Filthy Souls – The Boys Will Be Out For A Fight
Cute Is What We Aim For – The Curse Of Curves
Breaking Benjamin – The Diary Of Jane
Daughter – Youth

Amy xx

thnks fr th mmrs

(even if they weren't so good)

I took a few photos over the past couple of months and I thought I would share them. They are just me and my friends in the park etc.

 This is me on a tree looking very cool (I joke)

 I tried to get a photo of my friend Chloe (AKFB) jumping but she jumped a bit late. I think this looks very funny.

 This path through the plants was very green and cute.

 I miss my brown hair. I dyed it turquoise at the bottom and cut it a little.

 Our shadows looked super cute.

 Chloe is a living Coke advert.

 There was a double rainbow when I was on the train but only one was clear enough to see on the photo.

 Me wearing a stolen flower crown.

 I was with Lily (TGWTBC) in Horsham and we found this cute (and empty) playground.

 I am really talented at swinging.

 Me and Lily (I look gross but meh)

I liked the lighting.

Anyway have a nice day

Amy xx

note: I hope this summer will be amazing. I have this feeling about it. It's going to be really good or mediocre. I want to take lots of photos and make lots of memories and listen to some amazing music and I hope I will have a great time. I'm tired of not enjoying every single day of my life.

poorly written pop songs

So we had this project in music, we were in groups and we had to write and perform a pop song. I guess the only conventions we had to stick to were basic formatting, and we took inspiration from Paramore.

Our song (I wrote most of it - and that's not a good thing, it's really cringey) is untitled, but I guess it would be called Hatred is the New Black.

I don't remember the lyrics exactly, but the gist of it is:

Something's got you down, and you don't wanna get back up,
You refuse all of the help you get, this battle will be lost.

I guess hatred is the new black,
It suits you perfectly,
It looks so goddamn good on you,
It's like your LBD.

You say you're trying hard,
But your trying hard to lose.
Like you're forcing yourself to feel,
Misery and gloom. <--I didn't write that line

I guess hatred is the new black,
It suits you perfectly,
It looks so goddamn good on you,
It's like your LBD.

So why don't you understand,
We're trying to help you, doing the best that we can,
but even our best can't save you,
You've got to save yourself,
If you need some inspiration, then girl,
just look around,
just look around. (Can you smell the cringe? Can you feeeeeel my heart?)

So that's our mega cringe song and I don't quite know why I am sharing this, or whether I will share it, I just felt like it I guess.

Amy xx

Note: I am sure I will regret posting this haha, it is so uber cringey! Just to say, this is not really my kind of song, I prefer more mellow happy/sad songs, and teenage angst isn't really my style, but I guess I am alright at making rhyming lyrics, so this is the end product. Also passive aggressive is my middle name.

return of the mediocre blogger - discussing dedication

I guess I've neglected this blog for a while. I would say I was sorry but I don't think anyone has been eagerly awaiting updates. You see, some people in this world have this thing called dedication, they have work ethic and they are motivated and determined and loads of other things that I am not.

When it comes to school, I just coast and it takes an exceptional teacher to make me actually try (although I don't always like these teachers, I know they are good for me), and I am grateful for them. But I feel bad, really bad, about the fact that I don't put effort in to what I do and I don't have any drive to put any effort in.

I do take pride in some of my work, if I am interested in it, but I don't think the curriculum is really built around my interests so sadly most of my work is half completed rubbish. This blog could be considered half completed rubbish I guess, along with two other blogs I have had, which I also neglected. (This was when I was 10/11 and I really haven't changed).

I guess as an update of sorts I could tell you a few things about my life right now, so here goes nothing/something:
I am now fourteen and will be fifteen in November and I don't really know how I have changed, mentally anyway.
Tomorrow I am going to see War Horse in the theatre and I am excited because I can remember going to see it when I was very young, I sat in the second row and loved it, although that's pretty much all I remember so I guess I will get to relive that seven-year-old experience. Then, next week Wednesday I am going to Italy to the Bay of Naples (sorrento?) with my school on a Latin trip. It is going to be hot and despite sun cream I will burn. 
I just did all my end of year exams, I've had a few results back and they are all pretty good, none are exceptional but they are good enough for me. (can you see the lack of motivation here?!?!) Anyway, I liked doing them all in a week, it meant they were all over and done with and I could be less stressed etc. Turns out we are also doing controlled assessments now which sucks, I don't get that because we did all our end of year exams.

I might write a couple more posts and I might post them, I don't know.

For now,
Ciao (that's italian, right? I'm preparing for Italy),
Amy x

boo you whore.

Ever feel like being a mean girl???

 Amy.
x

UGH

Ever feel like you can't really say how you feel?

I find some words are good for that.

I say words.

I mean letters in random groupings.

Prepare yourself, it's a long list.

UGH
asdfghjkl
pahahah
meh
BAHAHHAHAHAHH
qwertyuiop
meep
qazxswedcvfrtgbnhyujm,kiol.
ahhhhhh
poopooooo
nonononononononon
yesyesyesyesyesyes
WOOTWOOT
omgicantevennfghjkl;
mwahahahahah
doink
grrrrrrrrrrr
RAGERAGERAGERAGE
heheh
waiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
nup
omfotp
whatthefridge?
k.k.k.k.k.k.k.k
WELLPOOYOUTHEN
hapiiiii

I could go on but bahhhhhhhhh I cannot be bothered.

Amy.
x